It’s been a little over two months since Titan’s death.  Choctaw has had good and bad days while dealing with the fact that Titan is no longer with us. I’m really not sure if she truly understands what happen to him, she just knows he’s not here anymore.  The mornings are really hard for her because she and Titan use to play every morning to the point that they would wear themselves out.

When we got Titan’s ashes back from the vet’s office, we placed the box that contains his ashes on one of the tables in our den area.  I will frequently get the box and show it to Choctaw and say Titan’s name.  I want her to know that Titan is home but just not in the bodily form that she was use to.  I honestly don’t know if it helps her or not to understand, but the more I do this, the more she relates to the box as being Titan.  One particular morning Choctaw was crying so I got in the floor with her with Titan’s box in my hands.  Choctaw and I sat and talked about Titan and she placed her paw on the box.  I took a photograph as quickly as I could before she moved her paw.  It absolutely broke my heart!! Choctaw will continue to grieve but she will get through it just like my wife and I are doing.  We miss Titan and that will never end.

 

Next up, my final post.